So when I say that my husband was a man so far down he could not wait for an answer to a text message — I know exactly how far down, and I know what the number was, and part of that number has my name on it.
That does not make a petrol can my fault and nobody has ever suggested it does, including his barrister.
It does mean that on the sixth of September, when I photographed a policy schedule and started a folder, I was already four years into a document I had not read.
I have been a person who signs things in four minutes and a person who builds a file for five weeks, and they are the same person, and the second one was trying to make up for the first.
What he was actually doing.
And here is the part that took eleven months and a trial to get straight, and that I have had to let go of in stages.
